Thursday, November 22, 2012

Grateful through the grief

Today is Thanksgiving, the first official holiday without Clutch. I'm going to be honest when I say that it is really difficult to be thankful when the only thing you have wanted,needed,wished for, and prayed for, just isn't what it should be. I had to look beyond the grief and loneliness to see the bigger picture; that in fact, I am blessed with so many wonderful things. I have a perfect Angel son, who watches over me and teaches me every single day. I was blessed with the ability to love so deeply a person who I may not fully know until the next life. I have a family who doesn't judge me when I am just having a rough day and a husband who lightens my load on those rough days. He finds the good and never fails to make me smile, even if its through tears. Most of all, I am blessed with this gospel and a loving Heavenly Father who knows me and who loves me. I think it's in these times when it feels as if we cannot find good things in life, that we do a little soul searching to seek out those good things. This life is a precious gift and it really is amazing.

2 comments:

  1. I think of you daily. I'm sure your heart skips a beat each day. Life is really hard, and it's tough to be strong all the time. You are truly blessed with a wonderful family and husband and the sweetest of all angels. I hope you are able to get through the holiday season and that you're able to feel the love of your sweet little boy through it all. I love looking at Clutch's tree (especially all lit up). It made me smile when I saw it. We love you so much!

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